Wednesday, 12 October 2011

21st Century Girl

Lately I'm addicted to this song. Hail Willow Smith! Be a Star! Hahaha



Give me an inch
I promise I'll take a mile
Danger is beauty
I'll face it with a smile

I'm on a mission
With no restrictions
Don't second guess myself
I'm born to be wild

I'm the type of chick
That likes to rock the beat
I like to rock the beat
I like to rock, the rock the beat

[Chorus]

Monday, 19 September 2011

BIND 2011. motivation, inspiration, passion.

I've just returned from a week of adventure. Well, it was 2 days ago actually that I returned already, and that's not really an adventure (I was just exaggerating it a bit).

It was a debate tournament, BIND! If you've already read some of previous posts I made, you should know that I went to Jakarta to participate in BIND. Finally, after 1 year I hadn't debated and after 2 years I hadn't come to Binus International (the last 2 years was also BIND), I just had my debate again and it's BIND!! The British Parliamentary System and for this time, the scope was international one. Not to mention, but there were teams from Japan, Thailand, and Bangladesh. Supposedly there should've been 2 other teams from Korea, but somehow they hadn't told anything to the committee regarding to their cancellation (they had made their payment already, though).

After joining this tourney, I've realized that debate has become part of my life which I honestly don't want to lose it. BIND has made me understood how much I felt terrible for not joining any debate tournament for a whole year. Regardless of my degraded skills on debate, I feel so regretful to have let go of my own passion, and to have not cared about my own self. I can no longer let things this way to keep happening.

I, now, have just made a very hard decision.

Saturday, 17 September 2011

#3 Random

I happened to look around of a friend's facebook, and I found these two interesting phrases:

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it".
-Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover".
– Mark Twain


No wonder he debates very well. He's indeed a very briliant-minded guy.
Hope I can see you and hang-out with you again, Mark (Mark Solis).

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

Antisocial

I don't know whether I've ever talked about this before on my blog, but suddenly I feel like talking something that has just crossed my mind.

After one year I've been passing as a college student, and of course after being inspired by Gossip Girl season 4 that I watched a couple months ago, I now realize something important.

I used to think that entering college would mean I could start a new life, could be someone new, and could start over everything in life. In fact, that's all wrong. As Serena van Der Woodsen said in the series, "College is just high school with more expensive books".

I can never change the character that has

Friday, 2 September 2011

Rules of my family.

Rules in my family:

1. You are what parents judge you

2. No matter how good you are and how many good things you do, you are worse than a criminal when you are wrong and make a mistake.

3. Children are born to be the slaves of parents. Parents are equal to God and children are lower than animals.

4. There are no such as democracy and freedom. Children have no right to decide their future.

5. Children must obey every single word of parents, since children are no higher than robots.

6. Parents

Wednesday, 31 August 2011

#2 a little piece of my life I've had so far

First of all I'd like to say Happy Ied Mubarak to everyone. I beg on your forgiveness for every mistake I've ever done in life.

As usual, every post is the story of mine that mostly are about my fucking pathetic life.

I think I have to plan for my own death. Not only because I've got forefeeling that "my time" will soon elapse, but also because I can't stand this burden anymore. I'm fed up with everything my parents do and say. I just can't take it anymore. I can't stand when everything is always measured by money and prestige.

I regret that I decided to enter medical school. Not that I dislike the subjects, but because from the very beginning it was only for the purpose of money and prestige. I also hate it to be in medical school because this makes me have to give up all of my passions.

I didn't realize it that actually