A Thousand Miles

And I create new post again. It feels very often now for me. Probably because I feel that writing makes me feel better, then I happen to write more and more. Okay honestly my reason for blogging today is to put the lyrics of A THOUSAND MILES here. The lyrics really make me feel something. When I come to think of it, sometimes I also run into the moment that the lyrics talk about. I just can't stop though it's tiring and I know it is. It seems like I'm such a daydreamer, but THIS IS LIFE. I'm sure it is not me the only one. there must be many-many-many people feel and undergo the same way as me.

Okay, stop talking nonsense and here is the lyrics:

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A THOUSAND MILES
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Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles

If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Just want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you

Tonight

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The best part of lyrics that I like the most is:
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

Somehow I feel that the part resembles some of my stupidity. It's very often for me to feel that way and to think like that. That's why I always feel regret about it.

Well, now I like to listen to David Archuleta's version. Just imagine it. The song instrumentally is full of Piano. Then the voice of Archuleta (when he sings) that always really gives us a nuance as if we were brought to the real atmosphere and feeling. I really can't resist it. Especially when I perhaps feel very into the song (I know it sounds freak and too much).

Okay, I think that's all for this post. I hope nobody minds about what I write here.

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Since I have declared to start all over again about my blog, I guess now it's just all right for me to write everything I want and I feel like to write. Please don't underestimate that I will write things in wild way carelessly. No, it's so not that way. It's just now I can at least use this blog like 'a place where I can share all my feelings and thoughts'.

One of my friends told me that it's just fine not to care what others may think about us so we can be ourselves, the way who we really are. Though, him and I admitted that still it's just too easy to speak it than we experience it and feel it ourselves. Nevertheless, we (or maybe I'm the only) think it's so much better to give it a try. Beside, I also don't think that there will be anybody who will read my blog. (Hahaha).

Okay, now I forget what I wanted to write. (Oh man!!)..

Hmm, let me think first..
Okay, I have no idea. Then I will write anything.

I don't know how to say it, but it seems that I feel sad lately, or maybe feel complicated (no, it's not complicated relationship status in Facebook). It feels somehow I feel something complicated about so many things. I can't even tell what they are. Somehow these many things affect my emotions and my mind. They cause me not able to sleep lately (yes, it's insomnia). I don't know whether it's just about teenager's problem or else. Though I must admit it that some of my thoughts are just about silly teens' life, but it feels more complex.

Actually in my last year as Junior High School student, I think I also experienced the same problem as now. However, it feels different. Probably it's because now I am much older than before and more problems come to mess myself, so it becomes more complex and much more difficult. Honestly I really hate this way, but when there's no any kind of feelings I have, I feel empty. I don't know which one is better, but really I hate both.

Well, to make it simpler, let's say that I'm only a teenager so it's natural for me to be like this, and let's assume there are only two main problems as a teenager who will just end (or maybe has just ended) his last year as high school student:
1. I'm sick of ending my high school time (more about friendship actually).
2. I'm sick about love life as teenager.

Really, I cannot avoid those two problems from my life and my thought now. It's just natural as a teenager, right?

At time I write this, you can see that I'm still in insomnia mode. I can't have my sleep time well. As I write this, I'm also listening to a song. It is A THOUSAND MILES. We know that this song is actually sung by Vanessa Carlton. But now I'm not playing the song sung by her. It's David Archuleta's version that now I'm playing the music in my Windows Media Player.

Of course everyone can understand what kind of feeling that someone has when they listen to this kind of songs (well, only if you know the lyrics). I don't know what to say, but yes it's true. I feel very regret of many things in past that I did. More I think of it, more I say to myself that I'm such an idiot. How could I be so that stupid? I was supposed to understand very much that I would never have my second chance, but why was I very stupid? Couldn't I a bit realize my own situation? I had been dreaming so much about philosophy stuffs, but I couldn't make myself to do right things. Even now I don't think I have changed. I'm still as stupid as I used to be. This fact is so annoying me.

Moreover, I am an introverted person. I can't easily talk to a friend about my private problems that actually everyone can see me when something's wrong with me. I am also kind of person that always fly in my dreams of my past. It's really difficult for me to move on and step forward. I really am very afraid of losing my comfort zone. Friendship, life, and everything that makes me feel happy, I totally do not want to lose them. However, time keeps going on. I can't stop the flow of time. After everything I struggled so hard, I would end up easily blown away by the time. I am very inferior before the time.

It's again such a relief for me to write many things here, after all. I know it's not enough and nothing's about to change, but I don't think it's useless. I can only hope for everything to be all right. I just cannot follow the words "fear not" since there are still many bad things happen around. It saddens me sometime when I see something that may be irrelevant to me, but a sorrow case for others. Though I may not know who the people are, still it feels there is something affects me emotionally. Then again, I hope everything's gonna be all right.

Start All Over Again

Finally I decided to stop my cockiness starting from writing things. Honestly it's so hard for me to be this such way. And you can see this is written in English, though. It's really a proof that I can't just simply leave all my pride to be a very strict man and formal, since it feels like noblemen for me and I really love to pretend that way.

I must thank to God, or rather to my Karma and Destiny that successfully lead me to meet so many people in life, so that I can thank to these people because they have helped me to realize many things in life.

I actually must admit that the reason I decided to be this way is because of a friend of mine (let's just say his name: ER). It's not that ER persuaded me to change my style and to stop being cocky (no, it's not that way), but through his writing on his Blog, I finally realized one thing that I actually had known for long: The most beautiful one that human posses is their sincerity and humility.

Well, please don't think that I wrote on my blog not sincerely and without any humility prior to my this writing . It was just that I wrote them with too much pride of myself. Now I think that to say something I wanna really say from my deepest feeling is not something bad. I know it's like grumbling all alone to my own self, but I think it's quite a relief. People sometimes need time to talk alone and write down everything they feel and experience, don't they? I am also a human, after all.

Then what actually did happen to me so I wanna change? Well, people always change, right? Sometimes they even evolve to 'another form' of human. Okay, the answer is: I read his blog. It would not be enough if I only read it once or twice or just a very few times. It actually was times for me to read his writings. Furthermore, it's not only his. Some other people's writings also have made me make up my mind. In short, they all have inspired me through their writings.

I honestly am very afraid about what people may think and say when later they read my this writing. Uhm, you know that in Indonesia where I've been living since I was a fetus there are so many people think that to share something unimportant (especially to write it in network that many living people can read) is so annoying. Because of that I started writing my blog with some rare information so I could prevent some bad thoughts of people about my blog and in order to make them impressed with what I wrote (yes, I'm such a freaky mind).

It's okay for anyone to think I am a dishonest person. It's true, after all. I couldn't even say my true feeling at my first confession in my whole life. It must be the worst confession all over the world. I do really regret it, but now I can do nothing about it. It's so troublesome for me that I can't stop lying, even to myself. Maybe it's because I'm too much afraid of what I have to face in life. It feels like I'm trapped in my dream; I don't wanna grow up and I want to stay still child forever.

Okay, stop the life-sharing please. I only want to declare that I will try my best to start writing things in new way, like story-telling maybe, or like sharing some experience and feelings I have.

Okay, that's all. I hope I will write routinely on this blog.
For readers: just wish me luck. Thank you.

Epilogue

The time I passed by
led me to a place
to another day
and for the first time I started myself there
I might not belong to
I might not feel love
but there then, I was taught to live
I was taught to love
I surely found my precious things
I was just able to definitely have what I wanted to protect, to guard

Then soon the moment started to go
It's about to say goodbye
with the ears I listened it whispered
with tears and smile I told the moment that I was happy

The path I walked on
for the dream I wished to be granted
it sang me a song of a piece of peace
calming me to continue the journey
then in my days, for the holy ancient feathers of mine
I was just reminded to my past by destiny
to keep remembering that I still missed it in heart

Though once I would forget,
the memory I lost in soul
would be replaced by truth
that my instinct took over me
for the sake of future of mine
and it surely would lead me back to what I am
to where I had lived my life

1, 2, 3, Sulap Sang Pencuri

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Di kegelapan

Malam

Bertopeng emas

Kacamatanya berkilatan cahaya

Menyembunyikan identitas

Rahasia yang terselubung

Kibasan jubah putih

Menari-nari di langit kota

Melayang

Dalam gerakannya yang elegan

Melintasi ruang dan waktu

Bersayap gantole

Mempermainkan jiwa di sisinya

“Lihat! Sang pencuri datang.”

Tersenyum hatinya

Manis

Sembari mempertontonkan tipuan

Sulap dan penyamaran

“Dia bukan pencuri.

Hanya kolektor benda-benda tak ternilai.

Tapi berselimut ketegangan dan sensasi.”

Kartu bridge

Joker

As

K

Q

J

Isyarat kehadirannya

Kemenangannya

Kehebatan kemampuannya

Elegan

Pencuri

Kolektor

Berjuluk Si Merpati Putih

Bertabur Mawar putih

~as the tribute to Kaito Kid (Kid The Thief, Phantom of the Opera)...~

Imperium Romanum Sacrum (Kekaisaran Romawi Suci)

PEMBUKA
Apa ada yang pernah mendengar tentang Kekaisaran Romawi Suci? (Inggris: Holy Roman Empire, Latin: Imperium Romanum Sacrum, German: Heiliges Römisches Reich). Di masa lampau, Kekaisaran ini adalah salah satu kekaisaran / negara besar di Eropa. Sebagai uni teritorial yang terletak di Eropa Tengah, kekaisaran ini berdiri sejak abad pertengahan sampai periode modern awal. Kaisar pertamanya adalah Otto I (dimahkotai pada tahun 962). Kaisar terakhirnya adalah Francis II (yang turun tahta dan membubarkan kekaisaran pada tahun 1806 selama Perang Napoleon). Dalam mengikuti sebuah dekrit pada tahun1512 Diet dari Cologne, nama resmi kekaisaran diubah menjadi Kekaisaran Romawi Suci Bangsa Jerman (Jerman: Heiliges Römisches Reich Deutscher Nation, Latin: Imperium Romanum Sacrum Nationis Germanicæ).
Teritorial Kekaisaran bervariasi sejauh lebih dari sejarahnya, tapi pada puncaknya itu mencakup dalam Kerajaan Jerman, Kerajaan Italia dan Kerajaan Burgunduria, karena banyak dari sejarah Kekaisaran terdiri dari ratusan sub-unit yang lebih kecil: kerajaan, duchies, kabubaten, Gratis Imperial Kota, serta domain lainnya. Walaupun namanya Kekaisaran Romawi Suci, untuk sebagian besar sejarah Kekaisaran, Roma tidak termasuk dalam perbatasannya.
Wilayah dan kekuasaan dari Kekaisaran Romawi Suci dalam pengertian saat ini terdiri dari negara Jerman (kecuali Schleswig Selatan), Austria (kecuali Burgenland), Republik Ceko, Swiss dan Liechtenstein, Belanda, Belgia, Luxemburg, dan Slovenia (kecuali Prekmurie). Lalu juga bagian-bagian penting di Timur Prancis (terutama Artois, Alsace, Franche-Comté, Sayoje dan Lorraine), Utara Italia (terutama Lombardia, Piemonte, Emilia-Romagna, Toscana, dan Tyrol Selatan), dan Barat Polandia (terutama Silesia, Pomerania, dan Neumark).
LEMBAGA
Kekaisaran Romawi Suci bukan negara yang sangat sentralistik seperti kebanyakan negara saat ini. Sebaliknya, justru terbagi menjadi puluhan -- bahkan ratusan -- entitas individu yang diperintah oleh raja-raja, duke, bupati, uskup, kepala biara atau penguasa lainnya (yang secara kolektif dikenal sebagai Prince).Ada juga beberapa daerah yang dikuasai langsung oleh Kaisar. Pun, dalam waktu sekejap Kaisar dapat mengumumkan dekrit dan seketika itu juga memerintah atas Kekaisaran yang daerahnya memiliki otonomi. Kekuasaan Kaisar sangat terbatas oleh kekuasaan berbagai pemimpin lokal.
Dari abad pertengahan akhir dan seterusnya, Kekaisaran Romawi Suci ditandai oleh keadaan sulit akibat dari para Prince wilayah setempat yang berusaha untuk memnberontak atau merebut kekuasaan. Demi memperluas wilayah lebih daripada kerajaan-kerajaan lainnya pada masa tersebut (seperti Kerajaan Prancis dan Kerajaan Inggris), para Kaisar Romawi Suci tidak dapat memperoleh banyak kontrol atas daerah-daerah yang secara resmi dimiliki. Bahkan, untuk mengamankan posisi mereka dari ancaman digulingkan, pun Kaisar dipaksa untuk lebih banyak memberikan otonomi kepada penguasa lokal, baik para bangsawan ataupun Uskup di mana proses seperti ini dimulai pada abad ke-11 dengan adanya Kontroversi Investitur dan kurang lebih berakhir pada tahun 1648 melalui perjanjian Pardamaian Westfalen. Beberapa Kaisar pun berusaha untuk membalikan penyebaran yang terus-menerus ini atas kekuasaan mereka, tetapi akhirnya digagalkan baik oleh pemerintahan Paus ataupun oleh para Prince.
TANAH KEKAISARAN
jumlah wilayah yang ada di Kekaisaran sangatlah besar, meningkat sekitar 300 wilayah pada masa perjanjian Perdamaian Westphalia. Banyak dari Kleinstaaten (wilayah-wilayah kecil) tidak lebih terdiri hanya dari beberapa kilometer persegi, atau hanya terdiri dari beberapa wilayah tidak bersebelahan atau berdekatan, sehingga Kekaisaran tersebut sering disebut sebagai Flickenteppich (hamparan serpihan-serpihan kecil).
Sebuah entitas dianggap sebagai Reichsstand (Tanah kekaisaran) jika berdasarkan hukum feodal tidak wewenang atau otoritas yang memilikinya kecuali Kaisar Romawi Suci itu sendiri. Reichsstand terdiri atas:
1. Teritori yang diperintah oleh keturunan bangsawan (seperti Prince, arcduke, duke, atau Bupati)
2. Teritori di mana otoritas sekuler diselenggarakan oleh pemuka agama (uskup agung, uskup, kepala biara). Pemuka agama dianggap pangeran dari Gereja. Umumnya terjadi kasus dari pangeran-uskup, pada teritori sementara (disebut pangeran-keuskupan) yang seringkali terjadi tumpang-tindih seiring semakin besarnya gerejawi-keuskupan, memberikan uskup keduanya baik kekuatan sipil maupun kekuatan agama. Contohnya termasuk tiga pangeran - keuskupan agung: Cologne, Trier, dan Mainz. 
3. Kekaisaran kota yang bebas, yang hanya tunduk pada yurisdiksi Kaisar.
Raja Orang-orang Roma
Seorang Calon Kaisar pertama-tama harus dipilih terlebih dahulu sebagai Raja Orang-orang Roma( Latin: Rex Romanum; German: römischer König). Raja-raja German telah dipilih sejak abad ke-9; pada saat itu mereka dipilih oleh para pemimpin dari 5 suku terpenting (Salian Franks dari Lorraine, Ripuarian Franks dari Franconia, Saxons, Bavaria, dan Swabia). Di Kekaisaran Romawi Suci, duke dan Uskup utama dari kerajaan, adalah pihak yang memilih Raja. Pada 1356, Kaisar Charles IV mengeluarkan Golden Bull, yang membatasi pemilih menjadi 7: Bupati Palatine dari Rhine, Raja Bohemia, Duke Saxony, Margrave Bradenburg dan Uskup agung dari Cologne, Mainz, dan Trier. Selama Perang 30 tahun, Duke Bavaria diberikan hak untuk memilih sebagai pemilih kedelapan. Seorang Kandidat untuk pemilihan akan diharapkan untuk menawarkan konsesi tanah atau uang kepada pemilih dengan tujuan untuk mengamankan suara mereka.
Setelah dipilih, secara teori Raja baru bisa mengklaim gelar "Kaisar" hanya setelah dinobatkan oleh Paus. Dalam banyak kasus, pelantikan ini bisa menghabiskan waktu beberapa tahun ketika sang Raja dihadapkan dengan berbagai tugas: biasanya pertama-tama Raja harus menyelesaikan konflik pada pemberontakan Italia Utara, atau kadang sedang dalam pertengkaran dengan Paus sendiri. Akhirnya penobatan Kaisar oleh Paus ditiadakan sama sekali, menjadi konten dengan bentuk Kaisar-terpilih; Kaisar terakhir yang dinobatkan oleh Paus adalah Charles V pada 1530.
Seorang Kaisar harus berkelakuan baik selama 18 tahun. Semua Kakek dan Neneknya diharapkan memiliki darah bangsawan. Tidak ada hukum yang mewajibkan yang menjadiu Kaisar harus seorang Katolik, meskipun secara secara hukum kekaisaran diasumsikan Kaisar adalah seorang Katolik. Kaisar tidak harus orang German (Alfonso X dari Castile bukan orang German). Sejak abad ke-17 para kandidat umumnya memiliki tanah di dalam kekaisaran.
Perinstitusian
Reichstag, atau Reichsversammlung, adalah badan legislatif dari Kekaisaran Romawi Suci dan secara teoritis lebih unggul daripada kaisar itu sendiri. Reichstag terbagi ke dalam tiga kelas. Yang pertama, Dewan Pemilih, terdiri dari para pemilih, atau pangeran yang dapat memberikan suaranya bagi Raja Orang Roma. Kelas kedua, Dewan Pangeran, terdiri atas pangeran-pangeran yang lainnya. Dewan Pangeran terbagi ke dalam dua 'kursi', satu untuk penguasa sekuler dan satu lagi untuk penguasa gereja. Pangeran dengan kedudukan yang lebih tinggi memiliki suara individu, yang mana pangeran dengan kedudukan lebih rendah dikelompokan ke dalam 'kolese-kolese' berdasarkan wilayah geografi. Setiap kolese memiliki satu suara.
Kelas yang ketiga adalah Dewan Kota Pemerintahan, yang terbagi ke dalam dua 'kolese': Swabia dan Rhine. Setiap kolese memiliki suara kolektif. Dewan tersebut tidak sepenuhnya sebanding dengan dewan yang lain; tidak bisa memberikan suara pada beberapa hal lain seperti pengakuan wilayah baru. Perwakilan dari kota-kota merdeka di Reichstag telah menjadi hal yang biasa sejak Abad Pertengahan. Namun, partisipasi mereka secara formal diakui hanya samapi akhir 1648 dengan Perdamaian Westphalia mengakhiri Perang Tiga Puluh Tahun.
Pengadilan Kekaisaran
Kekasiran Romawi Suci juga memiliki dua pengadilan: Reichshofrat (dikenal juga sebagai Dewan Aulic) pada pengadilan Raja / Kaisar, dan Rechskammergericht (Pengadilan Ruang Imperial), didirikan dengan Reformasi Kekaisaran 1495.
Lingkaran Kekaisaran
Sebagai bagian dari Reformasi Kekaisaran, enam Lingkaran Kekaisaran dibentuk pada 1500; empat di antaranya lebih didirikan pada 1512. Keenamnya adalah pengelompokan regional secara besar (meskipun tidak semua) dari berbagai negara bagian atas Kekaisaran dengan tujuan pertahanan, perpajakan kekaisaran, pengawasan peraturan, fungsi perdamaian dan keamanan public. Setiap Lingkaran Kekaisaran memiliki parlemennya sendiri, dikenal sebagai Kreistag.