Finally I asked it to her, my mom. My own mother. And as I had expected before, she didn’t know the answers. Honestly, it really disappointed me. I felt saddened somehow, though I already had known it.
They were just simple questions, very simple questions. But it seems that my own parents really never know me. Well, at the very first place, they never ask anything related to who I really am to me. No wonder then.
What’s my favorite food?
What’s my favorite toy/game?
What’s my favorite anime/cartoon?
What’s my favorite anime’s/cartoon’s character?
What’s my favorite book/comic?
Who’s my really best friend ever?
Who’s the world’s figure that I idolize?
My own mother doesn’t know the answers of those questions. I wonder if she ever really cares about me. She hasn’t even ever tried to know me by asking me. Poor me.
I may be lucky enough to have real parents who’ve raised me ‘till now, but they never know me or even try to know me. They haven’t even ever asked me about what I like and about what I want.
Now I really wonder whether they will shed a tear if I suddenly commit suicide then die. Really I do.
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
Saturday, 16 April 2011
Clueless
Pokemon 13th Movie Ending Song
Title: Ice Cream Syndrome
Sung by: Sukima Switch
Source: http://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Ice_Cream_Syndrome
Nothing to comment about this song, but I want you to know this somehow is like resembling my life years ago, when I was in middle school.
Title: Ice Cream Syndrome
Sung by: Sukima Switch
Source: http://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Ice_Cream_Syndrome
Nothing to comment about this song, but I want you to know this somehow is like resembling my life years ago, when I was in middle school.
| Japanese | Romaji | English |
|---|---|---|
| 関係はいたってフラットだ | Kankei wa itatte furatto da | Our relationship is a casual one |
| なんでも話せるくらいかな | Nandemo hanaseru kurai kana | To the point that we can talk about anything |
| 付き合いは長いが | Tsukiai wa nagai ga | We've been together a long time |
| 何も変わらないよなあ | Nanimo kawaranai yo nā | But nothing's changed, has it? |
| せっかく用意したムードも | Sekkaku yōishita mūdo mo | Even the mood that gets set up with such pains |
| 茶化されて終わってしまうんだよ | Chakasarete owatte shimaun dayo | Gets poked fun at and is brought to an end |
| 打ち明けられないまま | Uchiakerarenai mama | I can't speak my mind |
| かっこのつかないまま | Kakko no tsukanai mama | I can't add parentheses |
| 太陽は暑く照ってる | Taiyō wa atsuku tetteru | The sun shines scorchingly |
| Ｔシャツが汗ばんでる | T-shatsu ga asebanderu | My T-shirt is drenched in sweat |
| じめっとした僕みたい | Jimettoshita boku mitai | It's like I'm all damp |
| いつまでも乾かないや | Itsumademo kawakanai ya | I'll never get dry |
| 逃げ込んで入ったコンビニ | Nigekonde haitta konbini | I ran into a convenience store to escape |
| 懐かしいコミックは購入 | Natsukashī komikku wa kōnyū | And bought a nostalgic comic book |
| 君がいればどうかな | Kimi ga ireba dōkana | How would it be if you were here? |
| 一緒に笑えるかな | Issho ni waraeru kana | Would you laugh with me? |
| もう何年演じてんだろう | Mō nannen enjiten darō | We've been acting it out for so many years |
| 親友としてのキャステイング | Shin'yū toshite no kyasutingu | Casted as best friends |
| 距離感はいいんだが | Kyorikan wa iin daga | The distant feeling is okay |
| でも本音を言えばつらいや | Demo honne o ieba tsurai ya | But it would be tough if I could say my true intents |
| 相談しやすいって言うけど | Sōdan shiyasui tte iu kedo | You say it's easy to discuss |
| いつも君の恋愛トーク | Itsumo kimi no ren'ai tōku | But you're always talking about your love life |
| 微妙な心ん中バレないようにして | Bimyō na kokoronnaka barenai yō ni shite | I keep it inside my delicate heart to not be found out |
| この目の奥に映ってる笑顔 | Kono me no oku ni utsutteru egao | I want the smile reflected deep in my eyes |
| 僕だけのもんにしたいんだ | Boku dake no mon ni shitainda | To only belong to me; |
| どうにか焼き付けられないかな | Dōnika yakitsukerarenai kana | For whatever reason, it won't be burned in there |
| そっとファインダー覗いたら | Sotto faindā nozoitara | If I softly peek into the finder |
| 想像よりずっとずっと遠くに | Sōzō yori zutto zutto tōku ni | If seems like you're even |
| 君がいる気がした | Kimi ga iru kigashita | Further and further away than I imagined |
| いつかは誰かと消えていってしまう | Itsuka wa dareka to kieteitte shimau | Someday you'll disappear with someone |
| 見上げれば青い空 | Miagereba aoi sora | If I look up, there's a jet plane |
| 真っ二つに割っていくジェット機 | Mapputatsu ni watteiku jettoki | Tearing the blue sky in half |
| はるか空へ 夏が飛んでく | Haruka sora e natsu ga tondeku | The summer is flying away to the distant sky |
| 季節がもう過ぎていく | Kisetsu ga mō sugiteiku | The seasons are already passing by |
| かげろうの中で立ってる | Kagerō no naka de tatteru | We stand awkwardly |
| 不器用なだけの僕ら | Bukiyō na dake no bokura | Amidst the haze of heat |
| ぼやけてる世界でも | Boyaketeru sekai demo | Even in this blurred world |
| 君だけはゆがまないや | Kimi dake wa yugamanai ya | Only you remain without distortion |
| 友情っていう名前のシンドローム | Yūjō tteiu namae no shindorōmu | The syndrome called "friendship" |
| 出口のない永久迷路 | Deguchi no nai eikyū meiro | Is a perpetual labyrinth without exit |
| 動くのも怖いから | Ugoku no mo kowai kara | It's frightening even to move |
| 踏み出せないでいる | Fumidasenaideiru | So I can't take a step forward |
| 食べようとしていたはずのアイスクリーム | Tabeyō toshiteita hazu no aisukurīmu | The ice cream that I had meant to eat |
| ベタベタに溶けていたんだ | Betabeta ni toketeitanda | Has melted all over |
| 運命って待ってくれないんだな | Unmei tte mattekurenain dana | Destiny doesn't wait |
| 今逢いたいすぐにでも | Ima aitai sugu ni demo | Though I want to encounter it right now |
| いつになくまじめな声で | Itsu ni naku majime na koe de | Maybe I'll try calling it out |
| 誘い出してみようかな | Sasoidashitemiyō kana | With an unusually serious voice |
| そのまま連れ去ってしまえたならもう | Sonomama tsuresatte shimaeta nara mō | If I had taken it away like that |
| いきおいで抱え込んだ思いも | Ikioi de kakaekonda omoi mo | I might already be able to vigorously convey |
| 伝えられるかも | Tsutaerareru kamo | The feelings I hold |
| そのファインダー覗いたら | Sono faindā nozoitara | If I peek into that finder |
| 手が届きそうになるほどそばに | Te ga todokisō ni naru hodo soba ni | I hope that you look close enough |
| 君が見えたらいいな | Kimi ga mietara ii na | That I could reach my hands to you |
| 幸せは増えたって減るもんじゃない | Shiawase wa fuetatte herumon janai | If happiness increases, it's not a big deal |
| 君とならどんな一瞬だって | Kimi to nara donna isshun datte | When I'm with you, no matter when |
| きらめいて見える | Kirameite mieru | You always seem to sparkle |
Sunday, 3 April 2011
Keraton Surakarta (Surakarta's Palace)
Continuation of the Tour de Solo
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In Surakarta's Palace I looked some heritages of the old times of the palace, and some historical stuffs. There are also some traditional stuffs that are still in use until today. I was guided by Mr. Anto, the officer of tour guide there. He explained me about the history and also about the use of many things there.
I don't think I can give so many description in this post about my little tour. Well, after I arrived there, I purchased the ticket, then I entered and I looked around the inside park before I looked at the museum. The inside park has some beauriful trees and the land was covered by white sands. It's so much beautiful, indeed.
as it's seen, there is a place in the inside park, becuase actually the inside park is directly connected to the residence of the family of the palace. I don't know what that place is used for, perhaps something ceremonial.
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In Surakarta's Palace I looked some heritages of the old times of the palace, and some historical stuffs. There are also some traditional stuffs that are still in use until today. I was guided by Mr. Anto, the officer of tour guide there. He explained me about the history and also about the use of many things there.
I don't think I can give so many description in this post about my little tour. Well, after I arrived there, I purchased the ticket, then I entered and I looked around the inside park before I looked at the museum. The inside park has some beauriful trees and the land was covered by white sands. It's so much beautiful, indeed.
as it's seen, there is a place in the inside park, becuase actually the inside park is directly connected to the residence of the family of the palace. I don't know what that place is used for, perhaps something ceremonial.
Monumen Pers Nasional Indonesia (National Monument of Press of Indonesia)
Continuation of the Tour de Solo
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After taking city bus (ATMO) I then dropped at the National Monument of Press of Indonesia. I was explained about several things there related to the development of press of Indonesia. Actually the building had just been renovated lately before I came there, that's why I could only enjoy the museum mostly.
above is one of the examples of the old newspaper Indonesia had years ago. It is kept well as it is framed to be exhibited to the visitors.
The museum. Actually this place (read: National Monument of Press) has many functions. There are rooms for seminar, exhibiton, museum, etc.
It is an old telegram kept in the museum. As for me, it's quite impressive to see such thing.
One of the important figures in Indonesia's press. I forgot his name, but I remembered that I was explained he was involved in press in Timor-timor (now Timor Leste). He died in accident when he was flying with his parachute. Stuffs around the picture are his favorite stuffs.
Anyway, because I almost completely forget about the whole explanation back then, so please forgive me if my description about this national figure in picture is wrong.
Those ten statues are the statues of the face of the ten figures who preceded the National Monument of Press of Indonesia by establishing conference of press.
Diorama that models how the press in Indonesia worked in the past. It looks good and interesting, isn't it?
It's the stone of official establisment of the National Monument pf Press of Indonesia. It was officially signed by Soeharto in 1978, the Presidend of Republic of Indonesia back then.
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After taking city bus (ATMO) I then dropped at the National Monument of Press of Indonesia. I was explained about several things there related to the development of press of Indonesia. Actually the building had just been renovated lately before I came there, that's why I could only enjoy the museum mostly.
above is one of the examples of the old newspaper Indonesia had years ago. It is kept well as it is framed to be exhibited to the visitors.
The museum. Actually this place (read: National Monument of Press) has many functions. There are rooms for seminar, exhibiton, museum, etc.
It is an old telegram kept in the museum. As for me, it's quite impressive to see such thing.
One of the important figures in Indonesia's press. I forgot his name, but I remembered that I was explained he was involved in press in Timor-timor (now Timor Leste). He died in accident when he was flying with his parachute. Stuffs around the picture are his favorite stuffs.Anyway, because I almost completely forget about the whole explanation back then, so please forgive me if my description about this national figure in picture is wrong.
Those ten statues are the statues of the face of the ten figures who preceded the National Monument of Press of Indonesia by establishing conference of press.
Diorama that models how the press in Indonesia worked in the past. It looks good and interesting, isn't it?
It's the stone of official establisment of the National Monument pf Press of Indonesia. It was officially signed by Soeharto in 1978, the Presidend of Republic of Indonesia back then.
Tour de Solo
On March, 30th of 2011 on Wednesday I had my little tour around Solo. Actually I had planned this since more than a month ago after reading the post of my friend in her blog. Beside, I thought that I never had visited some good places before, so that it might be interesting to have my own adventure alone.
Based on plan, I was supposed to visit 3 places: National Monument of Press of Indonesia, Surakarta's Palace (Keraton Surakarta), and also Sriwedari Park, which then I would have lunch at Tony Jack. However, becuase of some accidents, I departed late in the middle day and unfortunately, It was raining right after I finished looking around at Surakarta's Palace. Hence, finally I was only able to visit National Monument of Press of Indonesia and Surakarta's Palace, then I went home.
I think I will have another tour to visit some other places in Solo. Besides, having a trip alone like an adventure is so much exciting, especially to take some pictures.
Anyway, I will post the pictures I took at National Monument of Press of Indonesia and Surakarta's Palace in different two posts. So there will be 2 other posts than this one about my tour. This part is to tell a little story about the tour I had.
I departed at around 12 by taking public transportation, the city bus called ATMO. it costed IDR 2,000 for me to take that bus.
After I arrived at the National Monument of Press, I then took a tour looking at the museum there. I was explained about several things related to the museum and the development of press in Indonesia. They've collected the mass media (newspaper) since 1970s 'till now. I guess we can have many information about what what happened in the past through the newspaper collected there.
National Monument of Press of Indonesia (Monumen Pers Nasional Indonesia)
After I finished satisfying mysef there, I then continued to Solo's Keraton (Surakarta's Palace) by taking public car transportation. I asked the security in National Monument of Press about how to get there, actually. I paid IDR 2,500 for taking this public transportation.
public car transportation (read: angkot) in Solo
I then arrived in Surakarta's Palace. FYI, the ticket price to get in to the palace is IDR 10,000. I think it's quite expensive for Solo.
The ticket for entrance of Surakarta's Palace
The Surakarta's Palace from outside.
Based on plan, I was supposed to visit 3 places: National Monument of Press of Indonesia, Surakarta's Palace (Keraton Surakarta), and also Sriwedari Park, which then I would have lunch at Tony Jack. However, becuase of some accidents, I departed late in the middle day and unfortunately, It was raining right after I finished looking around at Surakarta's Palace. Hence, finally I was only able to visit National Monument of Press of Indonesia and Surakarta's Palace, then I went home.
I think I will have another tour to visit some other places in Solo. Besides, having a trip alone like an adventure is so much exciting, especially to take some pictures.
Anyway, I will post the pictures I took at National Monument of Press of Indonesia and Surakarta's Palace in different two posts. So there will be 2 other posts than this one about my tour. This part is to tell a little story about the tour I had.
I departed at around 12 by taking public transportation, the city bus called ATMO. it costed IDR 2,000 for me to take that bus.
ATMO, the city bus
After I arrived at the National Monument of Press, I then took a tour looking at the museum there. I was explained about several things related to the museum and the development of press in Indonesia. They've collected the mass media (newspaper) since 1970s 'till now. I guess we can have many information about what what happened in the past through the newspaper collected there.
National Monument of Press of Indonesia (Monumen Pers Nasional Indonesia)After I finished satisfying mysef there, I then continued to Solo's Keraton (Surakarta's Palace) by taking public car transportation. I asked the security in National Monument of Press about how to get there, actually. I paid IDR 2,500 for taking this public transportation.
public car transportation (read: angkot) in Solo
The ticket for entrance of Surakarta's Palace
The Surakarta's Palace from outside.
After I finished looking around at Surakarta's Palace, I then went home because it was raining hard, that I didn't think I could continue my adventure to Sriwedari Park and had lunch at Tony Jack. I went home taking the public bus transportation called Batik Solo Trans. It's very similar to Trans Jakarta Bus, but a little bit cheaper; only IDR 3,000.
Bus called Batik Solo Trans
Bus called Batik Solo TransTuesday, 22 March 2011
#2 Random
below is what I got from http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
it is about my character and psychological behaviour after I input my name.
I know it sounds so common, and probably hoax or suggestion, but I don't see anything wrong with trying it. I myself don't give any judgment whether this quiz machine is accurate or not.
You entered: Liswindio Apendicaesar
There are 21 letters in your name.
Those 21 letters total to 102
There are 10 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 3
The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.
The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.
The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.
Your Soul Urge number is: 1
A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.
The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.
The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.
Your Inner Dream number is: 11
An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.
it is about my character and psychological behaviour after I input my name.
I know it sounds so common, and probably hoax or suggestion, but I don't see anything wrong with trying it. I myself don't give any judgment whether this quiz machine is accurate or not.
You entered: Liswindio Apendicaesar
There are 21 letters in your name.
Those 21 letters total to 102
There are 10 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 3
The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.
The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.
The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.
Your Soul Urge number is: 1
A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.
The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.
The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.
Your Inner Dream number is: 11
An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.
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