Fate

Saturday, 28 July 2012

The Inspiring People, The Inspiring Gibbon

Long long ago, I came to realize the world I lived in was never the world I had been dreaming; it was not the same as I had been watching in any Anime. In fact, everything in the world was so much the opposite, I realized. Family, Society, Life's evidence, and all aspects in life were exactly I couldn't understand why they were the way they were, because for the whole of my life my role model was everything in Anime. Probably that's why I used to believe everybody in this world was kind and as long we were kind, all good things would come to us; my parents, however, told me that I was wrong and stupid by the way I looked upon the life back at time, and I didn't understand why until finally every disappointment about life striked me.

I then thought, after the bad illumination, the existence of humankind was the mistake. God was so much wrong to have a faith in human race. This world would have been so much beautiful if human had never existed. And there the idea came: I should find a way to eradicate humankind from the world, one day this world would be clean from human and that's my mission.

So yeah, I hated human,

Are kara - From Then On (Full Metal Panic Ost.)

Are kara - From Then On
Vocal: Shimokawa Mikuni
Music: Shimokawa Mikuni
Composition/Piano: Sin

watashi nara, daijoubu
isogashiku shiteru kara
I'll be all right
Because I can keep busy

ganbatte iru yo
sou, yakusoku shita kara
demo kyuu ni, nakitaku naru keredo
I'm always hanging on
Yes, because of the promise you made
But now, I don't want to cry anymore

kimi to wakarete kara
subete ga kawatta mitai de
toori sugiru kaze no nioi mo
chikatetsu no zattou mo
Because we're far apart

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I'm no longer a newbie, in Varsity Debate. Luckily I didn't end it by being too old having my first 2 years as varsity debater. Thanks to UNY Newbie Debate Competition I could have a chance to once again feel the atmosphere of glory being a debater.
I made it to the grandfinal, and became the 3rd best speaker in the tourney. That was indeed a finally-moment I had been waiting for.
However, it wasn't that great. Because firstly, I lost to the newbies of UI. I know it's UI, after all, but they're newbies. I'm still totally far below what I expect to be. And secondly, I felt that my performance in ITS Open English Debate Competition was far better than in NNDC UNY. I think I'm still influenced by my teammates. I'm not yet a great debater who can impact my teammates to be influenced by myself.

Next, I'm happy that I just participated in Asian Medical Students' Conference 2012 Philippines. Now that I remember, it's funny how one year ago I sighed because I couldn't join Joint Conference Hong Kong (AMSC but there was also IFMSA thingy) due to financial problem. Now here I am enjoying my Post-Conference Syndrome. I really remember how much I wished so hard for the fortune to be on my side.

Wo Xue Hanyu

Da jia hao!
Wo xianzai xuexi Hanyu. Hanyu bu rong yi, dan bu tai nan a.
Jia you!

What did I write? Very much new language I use for this blog. There it is, readers! I am now studying Chinese. You all have to be proud of me; you are indentured here to give me applause to finally decide to take the lesson of a subject I used to hate for like 3 years in High School. Not to mention I've ever got big 0 in its exam back at high school, my very first (and hopefully last) ZERO in life.

Wonder what makes me so eager to learn Chinese? No, not because it's fascinating. No way it is. I may like Singlish (English with Chinese accent, somehow), but I don't like speaking language that I can barely set my mouth and lips to pronounce the words. Poor my mouth! Ah, don't forget the tones it needs to differ the meaning of words. Ridiculously, exactly the same pronunciation has different meaning when it comes to different tones. So be careful when you say you're gonna "ask" (Wen) in Chinese, because it may mean you want to kiss (Wen, too, with different tone of speaking) your conversational partner. What the hell !?

IU - Someday

lately I'm so hypnotized by this song; not only the way how IU sings it very beautifully, but also the lyrics have very deep meaning (in my opinion).

below is the English translation for the lyrics.

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted,
I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard
very time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have
I lost strength in my legs and drop down
I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
Everyday