Perhaps

1. Perhaps it's okay to start revealing the darkest secret of mine

2. Perhaps one day I must fully let this world know who I really am

 3. Perhaps it's just scary at first but would make my life easier in the end

4. Perhaps People aren't as judgemental as I think, but I am

5. Perhaps this is my self-acceptance, then I can stay true to myself

6. Perhaps I won't lose love just because of this

7. Perhaps friends will respect it

8. Perhaps happiness will finally visit me, by me being honest

9. Perhaps something good may come up afterwards

AMSEP-UNS. 7 Taiwan Delegates. Friendship.

Stop blaming on me for writing another not funny story! I know I'm not funny. I'm always too serious about everything. I've tried to improve though, just so you know. At least one out of my zillion words, I think, is a little bit funny enough. And for this time, I'll repost what I posted in AMSA-Indonesia's about-to-be-abandoned mailing-list (just to make it quick).

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Da jia hao!
Wo de mingzi Liswindio.

From 6th-13th of August 2012, AMSA UNS just hosted AMSEP for AMSA Taiwan. We got 7 delegates; 3 delegates from China Medical School, and 4 delegates from Chung-Shan Medical School.
Here are the names of the delegates:
1. Chen, Da Yang (english name / nick name: Kazy)
2. Chen, Sheng-Lin (english name / nick name: Sam)
3. Chiang Wan Li (english name / nick name: John)
4. Der, Jeng-Ray (nick name: Ray)
5. Wang, Yen-Hui (english name / nick name: Katelyn)
6. Yang, Chun-Lin (english name / nick name: Andy)
7. Tsai, Tzung-Ping (english name / nick name: Rick)

Drama. Me. Family. Fate.

I bet if some pieces of my life experiences were to be made into movie or TV Series, it would hit box office. Probably the genre could be "Drama, Comedy, Tragedy" (I wish I could add "Thriller", but no way! I'm not Jigsaw). The Censorship Body had to rate it as "15+, Family, Adolescence". Who knows it might beat Gossip Girl, or How I Met Your Mother, or even Friends? One thing for sure, I can barely believe that I really walked such life journey. Really, I feel like being a Drama Prince (No, I'm not a Queen!)

First thing first, Long long story, it's about my denial of being a medical student. It's true and will always be true in every history that I've never wanted to be a medical student. I hate it when I have to memorize so many things in my study-process. Truthfully, I'm more a Math-Student rather than a Biology one. I'd rather have Mathematics or Physics to be my field. The whole wide world knows it very well that all reason I'm here in where I am now is because my parents' desire, or dream, or hope, or anything it is. Yeah, not my own eagerness, never really my own choice.

The Road Not Taken

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


Robert Frost (1916)

The Inspiring People, The Inspiring Gibbon

Long long ago, I came to realize the world I lived in was never the world I had been dreaming; it was not the same as I had been watching in any Anime. In fact, everything in the world was so much the opposite, I realized. Family, Society, Life's evidence, and all aspects in life were exactly I couldn't understand why they were the way they were, because for the whole of my life my role model was everything in Anime. Probably that's why I used to believe everybody in this world was kind and as long we were kind, all good things would come to us; my parents, however, told me that I was wrong and stupid by the way I looked upon the life back at time, and I didn't understand why until finally every disappointment about life striked me.

I then thought, after the bad illumination, the existence of humankind was the mistake. God was so much wrong to have a faith in human race. This world would have been so much beautiful if human had never existed. And there the idea came: I should find a way to eradicate humankind from the world, one day this world would be clean from human and that's my mission.

So yeah, I hated human,

Are kara - From Then On (Full Metal Panic Ost.)

Are kara - From Then On
Vocal: Shimokawa Mikuni
Music: Shimokawa Mikuni
Composition/Piano: Sin


watashi nara, daijoubu
isogashiku shiteru kara
I'll be all right
Because I can keep busy

ganbatte iru yo
sou, yakusoku shita kara
demo kyuu ni, nakitaku naru keredo
I'm always hanging on
Yes, because of the promise you made
But now, I don't want to cry anymore

kimi to wakarete kara
subete ga kawatta mitai de
toori sugiru kaze no nioi mo
chikatetsu no zattou mo
Because we're far apart