#2 a little piece of my life I've had so far

First of all I'd like to say Happy Ied Mubarak to everyone. I beg on your forgiveness for every mistake I've ever done in life.

As usual, every post is the story of mine that mostly are about my fucking pathetic life.

I think I have to plan for my own death. Not only because I've got forefeeling that "my time" will soon elapse, but also because I can't stand this burden anymore. I'm fed up with everything my parents do and say. I just can't take it anymore. I can't stand when everything is always measured by money and prestige.

I regret that I decided to enter medical school. Not that I dislike the subjects, but because from the very beginning it was only for the purpose of money and prestige. I also hate it to be in medical school because this makes me have to give up all of my passions.

I didn't realize it that actually

Misfortune

The beginning of August 2011 was totally the opposite of the end of July 2011. There were many bad things happened to me. Bad luck!

1. I got sick on the first week of Fasting Month. It was just 3 days, but still was torturing me.

2. I couldn't participate in IMUN because my parents didn't want to pay the registration fee for me (as I mentioned in my previous post).

3. I wasn't accepted to participate in International Youth Day Conference held by GCC which will take place in Pacific Place.

4. many more

They all totally have got me depressed until now. I hate it when reality doesn't side with me. I just hate it.

By the end of July

Around the third and fourth weeks of July 2011, there were some surprises for me that I'd been waiting for. I know it's weird to call them as "surprise" when I say "I'd been waiting for them". The thing is, I'd already known for the news to come but I didn't expect them to happen due to my pessimism.

So, what are they?

1. I was accepted to be the member of the AMSA-INA White Paper Team for the East Asian Medical Students Conference (EAMSC) 2012 in Singapore.

To make it simpler, I will attend the EAMSC on January 2012 in Singapore because I become the team's member. Lucky for me my parents've allowed me participate in and agreed to fund me. Now I will have to work hard with my teammates to finish the White Paper because later we'll give presentation about Indonesia's Healthcare System Policy