Muse

Things happen, not only condition, situation, and circumstances that change, but also people. Sometimes it feels difficult for us to stand up to face the change, especially to admit that we also have changed a lot. We sometimes just can't believe it when everything's no more the same as they used to be.

This life is formed by so many occurrences that randomly happens. We can't set it as what we want it to turn out like, we at last can only follow the scenario given to us and play it as best as we can. Sometimes it looks hard, but we see that there were so many people that had lived this life before us and as we heard, they successfully passed through every single thing happened towards them.

I personally don't know how to manage myself as good as possible, in the opposite and in fact, I have failed to do so, I have failed about many things, so many things. I never know whether this is something I have to or I can strive for, but I just simply do it. I totally have no idea about what the best thing in this life and world is, I don't even know whether the way I live my life based on what I believe is right or wrong. I never know about anything.

To be honest, lately there are so many things make me stressed, sad, and feel like I wanna die. Sometimes we will think that death is the only way to get rid of this ridiculous life, won't we? But at last I always end up realizing something I still want to life for; at the time it feels no hope, there we can find the light of hope itself, though it always seems everything is vain at the time we do believe in the hope. Life is so unique, huh?

We never understand how God works in our life, we never understand what He is doing upon us, and at last we simply can only have faith in Him for everything may happen to us. Hope, pray, wish for the best and happiness,are really human beings' stuffs. I think that's why we really need the existence of God itself. If there is no Him, what do you think will happen towards human beings? Maybe everyone will just suicide themselves.

God is love, God is hope, God is miracle, God is everything and the only we have as reason to still live our life. In this craziness, uncertainty, He gave us life, so at least we still can expect that He is preparing something beautiful for us.

Beyond every problem and disaster we receive, there will always be at least one thing for us to give thanks. And actually at the time we try to muse about the day we have just passed, we can find how much love we also have received from everyone around us. And we try to remember it, personally for me, I will simply smile and feel happy for it. It feels so much beautiful somehow.

Having friends, having best friends, having those who always think of us, having those who always care to us, having those who will always be there for us when we need them, having those who will always lend us their hands unconditionally no matter what, even having chance to meet people that love us and we love them, are really the best blessings we have ever had for whole our life. Honestly I sometimes feel ashamed to ask for more to God, as He has given us a lot, or even too much.

This surely is a long journey, a very long journey. With so many unexpected things happens, whether we like them or not, but I believe that nothing's vain. This journey won't end, 'till I find my way home to You.