MY SALAD DAYS

MY SALAD DAYS, WHEN I WAS GREEN IN A JUDGEMENT

currently I'm making (writing) a story about my life in middle and high school. Well right now it's still a story about every single best friend I've ever had and it's not finished yet, but I think later I will write my really complete story for the whole my beautiful 6 years.

Come to remember about my life in middle and high school, I suddenly remember about a comic called SALAD DAYS. The comic tells every single love and friendship story of many teenagers, green teenagers. At the end of the story, there is a good quote which is taken from a theatrical drama story created by William Shakespeare called ANTHONY AND CLEOPATRA. The quote is as you read in my opening of this post. "My Salad Days, When I was Green in a Judgement". Based on the script, it is said by Cleopatra.

I somehow now admit myself as a very old person, or at least an old teenager. I'm 18 right now and in the next 2 years I'll be 20, which means in next 2 years I'll be no more a teenager. Even it's now kinda legal for me to watch porn (it's legal here for 18). I'm so surprised how old myself is.

Nevertheless, when lately I look myself on the mirror on the wall, I realize that the wrinkles on my face have increased. I'm surely getting old. At the first time I noticed, I felt so scared of getting old. However, now I feel that I admit it. I probably enjoy myself getting older, physically and mentally.

Getting older is unavoidable.

Now when I try to remember about my salad days and to read some posts I wrote, I feel a little weird and funny. I don't know why. I also wonder if I really ever felt that way or really ever was like that. Well, I don't mean about being mature or stuffs, but maybe I just feel different.

Honestly, one thing I'm sure of is that I still remember how this chest was pounding a lot at the time I was that green. Something that always bothered my mind and feeling that I felt worried and unrelaxed. Now I no more feel that way. No more that nervous, and never.

I think I miss how I used to be so stupid, or I was so nervous of something I didn't know. it's not that I miss the nuance or the moment, but I miss the former me. I think being 'green' is quite funny, quite unique. It's something that no other terms of life will ever have and experience. However, I don't mean that now I want to turn back time. I don't know what reason has made me feel all right with my condition right now (since before I didn't feel fine at all). I can enjoy my life now and show a smile, it's really not hard to do (at least right now, but I hope it will be forever).

I suppose that everone's salad days are beautiful. I guess oneday when I have become a real adult with good maturity, I will show a big smile as I look at many other new teenagers that will remind me about my former me. and as Cleopatra, I spontaneously will say "My Salad Days, When I was Green in a Judgement".